To help gather the strength I need to make it through the day and find the love in my life to prove that greater things are still out there, I decided to create this space. This will be a space where I can look inward, reflect and examine my life experiences without losing myself in the whirlwind of chaos and rejecting the negative beliefs I have about myself and my life’s worth. I expect to become more confident and secure, and to become my own hero. Listing my experiences, I will be able to see and realize that I am strong and I am love. As I continue to mourn the loss of my best friend, Sunny; continue to search for the strength to visit my 90-yr grandmother with dementia; work full time; try not to neglect my husband; and be a supportive daughter to my retired mother, this space will be my sounding board to regain my focus and to find strength and love in my life. If, by some good fortune, someone stumbles upon this and is able to gain the clarity, strength and love needed as well, then I am twice as determined to keep this site up and available. Maybe even start a new network/support group for people who just need a space to go to regain focus and awareness that no matter how bad today seems, everything is okay and will be better.
I am not a writer, nor do I consider myself to be a blogger (not yet anyway) and I am generally a private person. But you know what they say – if you want your life to be different, you have to do something different. So here I go.